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November 27, 2007

I'm Stuck Between Tommorrow & Never...Your Asking Me To Chose A Future OR A Present.

I can’t lie I was thinking to much, and needed to explode.

Don’t read this, because I know you’ll just be disappointed or upset.

I can’t help my feelings so stop trying to change me. I can’t be perfect I thought you knew that?

It’s not what you think, so don’t try to tell me different. I’ve had your advice up to here.

Stop saying things we both aren’t true. Your never going to convince me.

I’m in no mood to care anymore. Life is to hard. Too complicated.

The things you say sometimes makes my head spin and my heart beat.

I’ve been listening to apologize waay to much =/

It’s like I’m trying to make this train wreck happen. I don’t mean to do anything

The one person I can tell everything. I really can’t tell them anything at all.

Ever felt trapped in freedom? well nt rly.

Stupid things make me smile. My mind won’t shut up screaming at me.

I miss you. But I don’t want too. I just wonder….

Maybe one day I’ll think for myself.

[Invisible]…I wish x

A life on your own, Isn’t any life at all :]

Sing without a reason :]

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Posted on 11/27/2007 2:35 AM Comments (5)

November 25, 2007

I’ve Got Another Confession I Fell To Temptation

*SideNoteth - Elias....Thank you dude :] you rocketh like woah! x *

I’m looking to the sky and the stars are burning my eyes

We have three minutes until the world comes down crashing

Like a wave with to many memories

I’m not telling you, I’m screaming it at the top off my lungs

I’m stuck for things to say, its all lost meaning now

The world was so beautiful till now, It’s been used up, washed out

I’m not falling if you not going to catch me.

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November 12, 2007

Inside I Start To Fall Apart [I'm Not Who You Think I Am]

I’m so childish sometimes, I feel like crap currently, I am pushing one of my good mates away, and I’m just waiting for them to give up and hate me. I have this gut feeling that I need them to hate me, because I think I’m going to hurt them in the future and I’d rather have them now, hating me instead of them failed by me. They must be so confused. I’m just to easily offended and

I feel like a shitty person.

I don’t know what to say, or even do. The look they gave me today made me want to curl up and cry. I just want to run up to them and hug them until everything I have said/done has been forgotten. I just really want to have hug, god I‘m always thinking of myself. But I can’t this needs to happen, I need to forget them, to much is going on and I can’t trust myself any longer. Feelings mess everything up. How can I forget them, when at one point they were all I could think about, but now situations have changed, its either…or. And I have to chose.

Or do I?

I need them to understand. Its going to be so hard. Maybe I won’t let my feelings rule me anymore or, just sometimes goodbye is the only way………

*..I wish I was someone else, anyone but me …. tonight..*

The Reason Was Always You;

I just wanted you to believe that everything I did had a reason

That I never meant to cause you any pain

I’m still confused

But I miss everything we used to have

A simplicity has never been so hard to give up

I’ve given in, lost hope

My last thought had you in mind

Your not supposed to be there

But every second thought you screamed obscenities at me

I’m going to go now

Let you live the life you were meant to

I miss everything we used to have

I wanted to stop you seeing the side I didn’t know

But instead I smothered you in it

I wish I was still the one

But because I was

I couldn’t let you ruin your life

Do I feel better now?

I just want to fall to the ground

The tears still aren’t coming

And I’m still waiting round

Maybe one day

Maybe one day, I’ll say sorry

And mean it.

I’ll rise from the ashes of our forgotten memories.

As he threw my heart up against the wall

What’s better then to of loved?

To never of loved at all.

*……it’s not what it seems. don’t try to understand me……*

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November 2, 2007

My Ten Fantasy Guys.

I was tagged by onlythis [damn her!! lolz :]

1. You post your top 10 fantasy guys/girls
2. You tag 10 people.
3. You CANNOT tag someone who has already been tagged.
4. You have to let the people you tagged know that they've been tagged.
5. These are the rules they must be repeated every time.
6. THERE MUST BE PHOTOS! AT ALL TIMES

1. Alex & Jack From ATL. [Tied First]