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I was standing on cloud nine looking up at the stars

In less than three seconds everything had crashed and burned

How can I explain this

If you don’t even want to listen

I remember each lie and each story

I kept all of your love notes

Stop looking at me as if I am stupid

I know all about you and her

I watched you walk away

A slight smile on your face

This time I mean, its all over

With my finger on the trigger

And you hands around my throat

All of this was wishful thinking

I’m sick of second glances and messed up chances

I am confused, And I'm I should be inlove with him, not the other guy! this is all messed up

Why Do I Hate Myself So? And Does Anyone Read Between My Lines?

Xx  Hannie™ [x_Fucking Drama Queen_x] xX

My cell phone stays silent

I’m wishing anyone to call

To save me from this fate

But tell me this, is it already to late?

Does no one really not care?

They all say they do

I believe them, I truly do

But I’m so sick of feeling so trapped

And no one cares

To read

Between

The

Lines

I wanna say happy valentines day to you all !! And I know it suxx, it truly does but I love you all …. Yes each and everyone of you !!

I also wanna say sorry for not being on the past few days, my parents are stressing out at me and well I’m a bad person ….. The mood is currently self-hating so I do understand if you guys get a little sick of my complaining.

Love you

Hannah

xx

You could say Valentines day has inspired me, ha I've decided, I don't need "LOVE" in the fact, as always my friends are all I ever needed.

I have also realised, I never finish anything, I can never commit ...... seriously I'm sorry for the disappointment, I couldn't be more of a failure.

I want you to know I will always be there

A helping hand, a shoulder to lean on

I want to be your valentine

Hold your heart close to mine

Now tell me this, and try not to lie

When the tears have dried

From the many lives you had lied

I never felt so

Now long live our broken hearts

Fixed together with memories of us

I hope you choke on my words

I’m sick of being second best

Love is for some, and some don’t deserve it

I’ll bring the happiness to my friends

So let the rain fall down,

Softly hitting you and me

I’ll wait here for the thunder

Me and Kristina kept looking at each other trying so desperately not to laugh, I know it wasn’t the right place to, being an funeral and everything but the words that poured out the priests mouth had, no real meaning to what she was really like but each time we went to, we burst out crying instead. It was weird, I do admit it just being two of us when us three where inseparable.

We shared everything, from our darkest secrets to even bra’s if one of us didn’t have one, but I want to get this fact clear just because we where close didn’t mean we told each other everything that went on in our pretty little minds, well up until recently none of us had even talked to each other as we where so busy, we lived together but we never had time to talk, but when we found out about hollie, everything was dropped. Me and hollie had been best friends since we met in the sandbox, and we met Kristina after a show two years ago, it was like we had known her forever.

I must have been out of it for a while, because when I looked back at the priest he was no longer there and people where starting to leave.

I grabbed my coat and Kristina’s hand and we left the funeral, we where both tired well emotionally anyway.

----- one week later -------

It was hollies birthday today, and to mark our respect we where going down to her grave to talk to her, place flowers clear up, ya know the usual things you do at a grave.

“c’mon, its time we better leave” shouted Kristina.

“meh, coming” I shouted back.

I put the photo album back into the draw and went downstairs. Kristina grabbed her keys and we hopped into the car.

It took us less than ten minutes to reach the graveyard. I walked over slowly placing the flowers down and turned round to see that Kristina wasn’t behind me.

-- Kristina’s POV ----

As I went to leave the car, I could hear my phone ringing, as I left it in the car. After what felt like hours talking to my mum I ran to catch up with Sarah.

She wasn’t by the gravestone when I went over to it though, it was empty except from the bunch of flowers that she had brought today.

I heard footsteps behind me and turned to see who it was.

Four young guys where looking at me, each one with a puzzled expression across there face. “yes?” I asked.

“what you doing here?” one asked.

“well, let me think it’s a grave yard so ….. I’m guessing shopping you?” I replied.

I heard one of the boys stifle a laugh, which gained him a dirty look from the one who previously spoke.

“no need to get smart, I just wanted to..” he never got to finish his sentence.

“RYAN FUCKING ROSS, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?” Shouted Sarah.

The colour drained from his face. “Sarah hey, how are you?” he asked sheepishly.

“don’t you dare hey me, I haven’t heard a word from you in three years and now you decide to care?” she said well shouted more then said.

I looked completely confused and just kept looking back and forward.

“I never stopped caring” he whispered.

She laughed “isn’t it weird aye? It took hollie to die, before I could even gain a conversation with you, why you just go back to your little world of rock stars and parties and leave me alone”.

----WELL ?? --------

Staring intently at this blank screen,

Willing for each word to come to mind

Nothing, but silence

Should I say sorry that it all over and gone?

Should I say, thank you for all the memories we shared

The page is still, blank flooded with messed up sorry

This isn’t how I expected.

I’m just another cliché kid

Wishing I was anyone but me

I have no real reason

Scars, can’t hide and tears won’t fall

I am worth nothing, nothing at all

Now stop the joking, and take back the lie

I’m sick in the head and dark inside

My heart doesn’t beat and words aren’t easy

I’m as good as dead, but I’m still breathing

All I ever wished, was to be your last kiss

You weren’t meant for this life

That’s why it ended so suddenly

I regret every hateful word I said

Oh, how I wished I was the one dead

Your words play around my head

Like a song, that’s stuck on repeat

I’m sorry, forgive me please

Those words aren’t likely to leave

It's weird what comes to you at the mostly unlikeless of moments !! Ha,

Hannah X