January 31, 2007It's An Collection ~ Day One ~ Updated !!So I came home and I kept writing these, and I had to post them, so enjoy the collection will be titled as a day to day thing e.g day one !! MWAH x
Let the words of hate choke you Stay stuck in your throat I’m sorry, but these words had to be said I really do wish you to be dead !!
Oh, I can’t help but do laugh Even if I can’t breath I’m sorry if you think I’m joking Sorry if I made you lie But tonight will be the last time I will ever say goodbye
Think about it, How many seconds in the day Do you spend thinking of me? I take the empty look as never Well walk a mile in my shoes Your never forget what you’ll see
See words mean nothing, When your hands are around my throat But I am to stubborn and I will not cry The darkness won’t kill me I can still feel inside As I let the last grasp of life slide through my fingers I just want to know, was this really love?
I’ll choke on my blood and spit out my next words Love isn’t worth it, and I am it I’m scared and I’m confused, will this work out? I can breath but I’m still suffocating I’m over thinking, killing each cell My own mental hell
Twisted words and unwritten symphonies As I walk down this forgotten road Memories come flooding back Behind each door, a story to be told Now to choose, which way to go The past or the future?
Posted on 01/31/2007 1:44 AM Comments (10)
January 30, 2007Dear, Me ........ It's Been A While X
Ok, agree or disagree with this. I’m not to bothered as I’m in a ranting mood;
This has been swimming round my head for ages, Is it me or does most guys want a stupid dependant girlfriend? That will believe every word they say?? Ok ignore that I’m in a bad mood ………..
Do see that girl ? Staring intently at the patterns on the wall Surrounded by friends, not one has noticed the look upon her face
Is she angry, or is she confused ? Looking at the way she is dressed, so normal to the eye But the real feelings are bottled up inside
My emotions are bottled, worth pure gold Buy them while I can still feel Take no noticed to the tears, take no notice to the scars
I’m okay, this time I mean it, the words can always slip so easily from the tongue
Posted on 01/30/2007 7:11 AM Comments (24)
January 29, 2007I've got the nu, good charlotte song stuck in my head
I Just Can’t Breath
I’m So Sick Of Everything
When Did This Become So Hard?
Why Can’t I Just Speak?
Is It Just Me, Or Does This Same Old Record Just Keep Playing ?
Ha, I was feeling how can I say ~~ random?
Kudos, Hannah xXx
Posted on 01/29/2007 2:31 PM Comments (5)
Ha, I'm Not Dead, Just Temporally Insane
All I wanted was for this to work, All I wanted to feel something I haven’t cried a single tear for us, not a single other thought
You never wanted and independent thinker, a ruler of her own mind you wanted someone weak, and dependant of you I can’t change, to be frank I don’t want you to
The weak and the helpless are always first to go Loved by many, loved by all
It isn’t about her looks and it isn’t about her smile Its how she carries herself and how she thinks I’ll never be, loved and maybe I’ll die alone
But with friends like these, who needs you ?
Ha, many thanks and love to my friends, and my ex’s hey even my enemies, because without them I wouldn’t be well me. I have alotta love you know, and I want you to have it *puts it in a parcel and sends it to you* but I warn you, be careful, it can easily break. Kudos Hannah xx
Posted on 01/29/2007 11:13 AM Comments (8)
January 26, 2007Lets Get Hypothetical !! All Are Welcome ........Ok, say this girl asked her best friends for advice but her best friends didn’t know what to say, so they looked else where, She is going out with this guy, buts she so confused, she feels suffocated by him and his feelings. She feels so distant and scared. She to confused and she just doesn’t know what to do. She doesn’t know what to do. Now her friends are worried because she’s gone back to her old ways of keeping everything bottled up and well she to ashamed to say the rest. How can her friends help? How can she help her self. Always, Orange xx
Posted on 01/26/2007 12:11 PM Comments (13)
Hate Me? Love Me?Ha, extreamly quick journal !! I'm at placement using the computa secretly as there all in asembly, so anyhu wanna say soz for not being on, life has been hetic !! I'll write more when i can LOVE YUU ALL !!
Always Hannah ! xx
P.s, if any of you have time i need some help !!
Posted on 01/26/2007 2:05 AM Comments (4)
January 23, 2007I'm In A Mood, A Good One At That Can You Guess By This Set Of Lyrics Why? Ha
As the beat begins pumping and my head starts to sway All is quiet all is calm Hold my hand, its time to dance
I think my heads going to explode, with all this excitement Pulsing, send messages to the brain Hold my hand, its time to dance
Butterflies and lipstick skies I flutter my eyes and count to ten This can’t be happening, no not again Hold my hand, its time to dance
Its just the begging and hopefully it won’t end I’m trusting you, I’m letting go Hold my hand, its time to dance
I think I’m falling, no that can’t be true Love isn’t instant so what can this be?
Hold my hand, its time to dance
Ha. I'm confused too, but if you want to know email me. i'm more than happy to oblige.
~side note~ Kelly you amaze me, and I just wanna say thanks, thanks alot ...... X
Posted on 01/23/2007 6:15 AM Comments (6)
January 20, 2007An Epic Convo ~ Stu May Kill Me For Posting, But It Preety Clever !! He's In Black ! I'm In Blue
Posted on 01/20/2007 2:10 PM Comments (7)
January 19, 2007Pain Without Love Isn't Pain At All ~ Oh, How I Love PainDon’t look back, don’t breathe a word
I’m so scared for the future, I’m so scared of the past Singing sad love songs and slitting my wrists
Its now time for me to get graphic Each memory, another stab to the heart Each smile, each laugh
I just want to never here you again, but I never have a choice What’s it like to kill? Someone without having to breathe? Razor blade love and a loaded gun
Say goodbye to the happy old me, Welcome to my bleak future Don’t even say a word, don’t even try
Try me, try and sorry and I I will choke the words so the stay caught in you throat. Ha, darling I will choke you to death, Wait until your last breathe
What can I say ? I’m sick of broken promises
What Can I Say? Those Who Know Me Well, Will Get This Or Even My Mood ........ Those Who Don't ENJOY !
Always Hannah
~ I'm In No Mood For This ~
Posted on 01/19/2007 12:42 PM Comments (10)
January 18, 2007Someone Gimme A Cyber Hug XqI don’t blame you for being you , Just don’t blame me for hating it. I just watch you go by, living your life Wishing you would stop and say hello, anything to make this pain go Slip up on your words and lies Choke back those tears of the many nights you have cried Why do have to make this so complicated? Why does everything you do, make me want to die inside Slip up on your words and lies Choke back those tears of the many nights you have cried Oh, I wish I was a little kid again, Scraped knees heel so much faster than broken hearts.
MOOD ~ I'm feeling pretty Low Listening to ~ Alltimelow ~ Break out, Break out Always Hannah x ~ I'm not weird, I'm gifted ~
Posted on 01/18/2007 8:56 AM Comments (18)
January 17, 2007I'm Confused ~ Do You Find ME Fake?I came across a conversation yesterday, which wasn’t to important, just the fact they felt this girl was fake. Now in my opinion, how can someone class another as fake? What is fake? I’ve always never understood that.
Are you fake if you …..
Ask people to comment on your things? Wear what you want, even if its not band-tees all the time? Coz I swear I’m pretty confused.
Some music for you too check out ~
http://www.purevolume.com/thehint http://www.purevolume.com/theacademyis http://www.purevolume.com/sensesfail http://www.purevolume.com/lookwhatidid http://www.purevolume.com/lastwinter http://www.purevolume.com/gymclassheroes http://www.purevolume.com/alltimelow http://www.purevolume.com/silenttongue http://www.purevolume.com/daysaway http://www.purevolume.com/heropattern http://www.purevolume.com/afterthetragedy http://www.purevolume.com/toosorryforapologies http://www.purevolume.com/sparkstherescue http://www.purevolume.com/abeautifulsilence http://www.purevolume.com/lovearcade http://www.purevolume.com/3daysgrace http://www.purevolume.com/insite http://www.purevolume.com/1life http://www.purevolume.com/eyessettokill http://www.purevolume.com/aiden http://www.purevolume.com/hastetheday http://www.purevolume.com/thestartingline http://www.purevolume.com/escapethefate http://www.purevolume.com/bayside http://www.purevolume.com/sayanything http://www.purevolume.com/atreyu http://www.purevolume.com/thehushsound http://www.purevolume.com/plainwhitets http://www.purevolume.com/hellogoodbye http://www.purevolume.com/afterthesirens http://www.purevolume.com/selfagainstcity http://www.purevolume.com/discoensemble http://www.purevolume.com/waterdown http://www.purevolume.com/deadtofall ENJOY !! Always Hannah X ~ Friends~ Friends are the family, god gave you to make up for the one you have ! X
Posted on 01/17/2007 10:39 AM Comments (10)
I'm Not One For Loooong Goodbyes ~ But It Never Really Was A HelloRambling mood much? Well Yes, Yes I am !! But I have less than an hour to get ready for college so it's just a short journal today. Has anyone heard of linchpin? Well I'm going to see them on the 9th of Feb, well not see them as there playing at my local Club. But it still counts as a concert? ........ right? *giggles* I can't wait to start my new courses, seriously i'm soo PHSCHED (sp?) !! hehe My inspiration suxx these days and I can't think of anything to write sooo IDEAS? WORDS? Always Hannah x
Posted on 01/17/2007 1:48 AM Comments (10)
January 14, 2007нєαятѕ + ℓιєѕ = fяιєи∂ѕ -------------- тняєє яυℓєѕ ιи ℓιfє -- тяυѕт, ℓσνє αи∂ нσρєI’m going back to my old ways of my journal’s consisting of lyrics so ……
My words have become so cliché So boring and repetitive
There all about you, never changing Always, always the same Are love was pure, unbreakable and true
Isn’t it funny how things have changed If I had enough strength Trust me I would of laughed
So there pretty short I know, I just haven’t got much inspiration today Much love Hannah xx
*~ A thought ~* As I’ve kind of done my little bit for the day I thought I’d leave you all with a thought “why do people who are so surround by friends, feel so alone?” I just want ALL my friends to know I wouldn’t be here without them. My life is what I owe and my life is what I have. X x X
Posted on 01/14/2007 2:41 PM Comments (9)
I'll Be There When Your Heart Turns To Dust ~ College Update !!Erm, Thank you guyz !! Your advice meant alot !! I have been thinking ALOT actually and this is what I have decided ~ I shall continue on the childcare course until it is complete and I have passed it BUT starting next year I shall be taking evening classes in "Drawing for begginers" and any course which links to Journalism. Yup thats right I have choosen (with a major lot of help from you guyz) to go into journalism. I hope this doesn't all crash and burn and I can't thank you enough Much Love Hannah x
*~ Suicide ~* I personally think its a pretty hard option, far from the easy way out, well think about it your life must be that unliveable to want to take your own life BUT I just want to say I would miss you greatly if any of you ever did. Another thing you don't have to talk to people about how you feel, just write it down TRUST me its helps a hella of alot. The world did cry that night, and I'm no good at suicide ...........
Posted on 01/14/2007 1:13 PM Comments (10)
January 13, 2007End of an era? Well Not really I'm Leaving College yet .............Ever since the beginning of this year, I've noticed me change...... my actions and my personality. It hasn't been a drastic major change just enough for me to notice. Before I bore you with my ramblings, there is a real reason to this journal ....... I've realised that I am, (and never really was) not happy with the course I have enrolled with ~ Childcare and Education. And I have decided I want to drop out and continue on another course which I would enjoy more, but that is where I have a problem ~~ What should I do? Well I have no idea annd it's slowly driving me mad, I don't want to continue with my current course because its making me un-happy I just have no idea what to do now. So .......... Any contributions to my problem will be greatly received. Thanks, for listening it really does mean alot. On a last note, I must tell you before I forget, I will try and end each journal with something relevant, like a quote or a saying or even some advice. Always, Hannah *~ Love, isn't automatic it takes time, the best type is the love that grows ~*
Posted on 01/13/2007 4:06 AM Comments (20)
January 12, 2007When the cookies attacked !!If I was ever asked what would I wish for It would be millions of pounds Or even a ticket for each of my favourite bands concerts Just for me to be happy in my own skin
Staring at the keyboard, wishing the pen to write I want to leave this world, escape into the night Now, this is different I’m not ever stuck for words Always an opinion, apparently I have a way with words I’m staring at the face of danger and I’m loosing control I would ask for help, sell my soul I’m rambling now and I’m not making sense Now its time to make me past tense
ME !! Xx
Posted on 01/12/2007 10:48 AM Comments (16)
January 11, 2007Butterfly Wishes and Messed Up HopeThere’s not a lot I can say Without giving my inner thoughts away
I’m not a very private person Ask me what you like I’ll skim the surface of everything You’ll never really see inside
I’m complexed, complicated and confused A wise friend once said I was a poetic mind silently abused
I love to scream, I love to shout Flaunt my stuff as if no one is about My inner emotions, the key to everything I’m as boring as a repetitive song you can’t help but sing
I overuse words, until they loose all meaning I write away my troubles, never felt what it was like My words scream at me, they all shout “fake and liar”
If I’m really truthful and say what I think My words would mean nothing to anyone but me
I love my friends, maybe to much But they mean the world, the world is what they are Music is a gift, it means so much to me Oh, how I wish the musicians could only just see
They have a talent, a gift if you will In their head there is oh, so much skill
On a last note, a thought you could say I hope you are saved, and don’t end up the same way
Xx Hannah xX
Posted on 01/11/2007 11:46 PM Comments (6)
January 10, 2007Whispered DreamsYou stained my mind Left me helpless on the floor I’m so hurt I’m so angry
I want to go back Back to when we where friends So many dreams So much hope
I wish I could just say sorry Scream it until my last breath What, what did I do ?
To make you leave me Abandon everything we had Forgive me, or forget me? I’m just wasting my breath
I know my story is old But I just can’t get over you Every breath, every second My mind is clouded With thoughts of us, of you
I never thought it would be over so quickly It never really did begin My heart is still hanging on My head is wishing I would just carry on
I’ll hold my breath, and count to ten Please rethink, Your actions
Oh, but in one breath I’m already over you
Maybe this is just a lie But I’m never going to stop believing it
Trust, Love, Hope
Hannah xx
Posted on 01/10/2007 12:48 PM Comments (9)
January 8, 2007тяυѕт. ℓσνє. нσρє. < mi nu everythin xxONE WORD:
HAPPY
Its weird i actualli do feel it !!
So smiles all round my loves !! *mwah*
Hannah xxxx
Posted on 01/08/2007 11:16 AM Comments (5)
January 3, 2007I MISS YOU !!! MORE THAN I DID YESTERDAY !! ~ MISS ME ?? XX*cries* Dammit !! being away from ere suxx alot !! i'm currently sneaking on ere in lessons, the only time i will be able to get on here so sorry for the late comment, notes and replies ! How you'll been? How was you xmas and new year? forever and always !! Hannie xx
Posted on 01/03/2007 7:28 AM Comments (8)
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